Journal Entry: September 27, 2007

"It has been a particularly difficult week - again, I am choosing not to share details, which is somewhat hard since I can't really explain what is going on.  Just know that I have been so devastated.  I have nightmares, then I wake up crying and find that it is all true.  This makes me want to never sleep.

"Today, though, at church, I really felt buoyed up and lifted.

"I learned that:

1. Heavenly Father KNOWS me.  He is aware of all these heartaches.
2. I need to forgive those that are causing this pain.
3. The Lord is my light then why should I fear?....There is in his sight no darkness at all.  Why am I letting myself be consumed with depression - in his sight, there is no darkness at all!
4. From Conf. Talk - "Because you are so valuable, some of your trials may be severe."

"I felt and learned more things, but I can't remember them all.

"One thing I do know is that I felt such a divine naturish connection.  I really do have a Father in Heaven.  We are all siblings.  This life is a test & it is hard, but we will be okay in the end.

"I just hope I am strong enough to keep believing this during the darkest hours of my life."

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