"I wish I'd been keeping a better record. Luckily, there are a few things on my blog. But, so much good has happened. My birthday was so awesome. Probably the best ever. We almost bought a spectacular house.
"But, tonight is the saddest of my life. John and I are officially separated. I never thought my life would turn out this way. Until August when he said he didn't want to be married to me, I had absolutely no clue this could happen. The kids are hurting. I am hurting. Max came over & gave the kids and I blessings. What a comfort! This is so hard. I love John so much."
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Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Journal entry: March 18, 2008
"Life is tough. Actually, it is getting easier. I have so many blessings & I know the Lord is aware of me & blessing me tremendously.
"I am so grateful for the great love John and I share. He has really been working at treating me well & I feel so much hope for us."
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"I am so grateful for the great love John and I share. He has really been working at treating me well & I feel so much hope for us."
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Journal Entry: February 22, 2008
"Well, I did go to the counselor today. It was good. I think it will help me. In some ways, he didn't say anything new, but it still helps me have some direction and focus.
"He asked me to be extra intimate in my affection - not sexual, but a loving touch or a 1-2 sentence comment.
"He also recognized the pattern of when things are good or hopeful it is "too close" for me, so I say something negative to push him further back. So true. He wants me to be careful to have no regrets-if the marriage ends, it will, but I can't look back & wish I'd been more loving or forgiving.
"He asked me to look up two scriptures - in Mathew about "Come unto me ye heavy laden" and in D&C regarding "a law irrevocably decreed in heaven."
"I really liked that we began with a prayer. I liked that he is a member of my church & can bring in gospel principles to our discussion & that he understands some of the things that have been difficult from this perspective. I like that I came out hopeful & not discouraged. I think it is worth my money."
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"He asked me to be extra intimate in my affection - not sexual, but a loving touch or a 1-2 sentence comment.
"He also recognized the pattern of when things are good or hopeful it is "too close" for me, so I say something negative to push him further back. So true. He wants me to be careful to have no regrets-if the marriage ends, it will, but I can't look back & wish I'd been more loving or forgiving.
"He asked me to look up two scriptures - in Mathew about "Come unto me ye heavy laden" and in D&C regarding "a law irrevocably decreed in heaven."
"I really liked that we began with a prayer. I liked that he is a member of my church & can bring in gospel principles to our discussion & that he understands some of the things that have been difficult from this perspective. I like that I came out hopeful & not discouraged. I think it is worth my money."
(Copied word for word from said Journal entry)
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